"Mah Love Letters :P "
Sunday, July 24, 2011HELLO! 
People usually asked me. What's my prefect date?
What's my perfect criteria?
There isn't any perfect guy dude.
Only God is perfect (:
SO, usually my simplest and awesome reply would be 'ANYTHING LAHHH! '
Right? :P
Before I came to know God, hmmm..
I don't really believe in relationship kinda stuff.
Its like, Why I wanna date for? A guy? Waste time. Money. Tears. Feelings. Effort. DUDE, I got other better things to do 
Prolly at that time. I just don't trust in guys. Now don't get me wrong, I never get cheated or sort of things like that. It just, IDK
Oh and, I never get into a relationship before. SAY CHEESE! HAHA!
Up to you to believe it or not. YOU BETTER
BUT RIGHT. I'm kinda expert in this stuff. Really.
I guess I learned by the people around me. Dramas that happened in their life.
I guess I learned by the people around me. Dramas that happened in their life.
Or even in drama. HAHA!
With my standard I always believe, I can do better. I mean without guys. Why wouldn't I?
Like getting married?
Why would I wanna get married?
Isn't MARRIAGE = RESPONSIBILITY ?!
Plus with household, babies, my career, husband. GOSHH *faint*
So why would I wanna trouble myself with all these things?
I mean I love babies. But I can just adopt one. Or just get a sperm bank or something.
HAHAHA!
HAHAHA!
Another problem would be your dude?
YOU SURE NOT HE'S THE ONE? What if one day he don't love you anymore?
What if one day you found out he had a mistress? Give you divorce paper?
Force you to sign, when you already gave your heart wholly to him?
Wooooshh! Nightmare! You probably gonna kill yourself
So of all these things, which doesn't last. Why would I wanna take the risk right? Better not.
Despite of all these things, I always search for a reason on everything.
Even like, what I'm doing on this earth man?
The world says, Live life to the fullest. Life is short, so enjoy it while you can?
But for me, NAHHH! Nonsense! What type of quote is that man.
Even though I desire for a relationship during the past.
When I'm almost tiny lil in a crushing moment.
Somewhat I feel there's some kind of forces which pull me away from that.
When I came to think of it now,I think God already taken care of me before I even know Him :)
Romanticism.
Happy ending fairytales. Storybooks.
Is it a culture thingy? Or influence from movies?
A girl would love that man. Which girl doesn't?
Flowers everyday. Date in a high class restaurant.
Barefooted while walking on a beach during sunset with a kaleidoscope of colors in the sky.
WOAHHHH! I love it man! HAHA!
But that is just too...unrealistic? Temporary? Superficial? AHH-HAA!
Love. Relationships. Feelings.
If it is based on feelings alone, what if one day its gone?
Then, no love already? Very subjective right.
In past, I ask myself. Like what I said just now. How genuine can a love be?
I always get this feeling that, mmhmmm..kay probably I get into this too much. IDK HAHA!
So, I used to think people tend to love me more, because...
You know like how people get crazy over Koreans or Americans. Their cuteness. Prettiness. Six packs. Looking Good in whatever they do.
Thats how I felt HAHAHA! Get it? No? Nevermind
So how you suppose to measure that?
By how you feel?
'YES! I'm feeling like this today! I think I'm in love with Him'
"You are my life. I can't live without you"
" U smile, I smile. Your world in my world."
Oh goshh. Infatuation. Slimy dorky disgusting.
Get it right. I did not say, you can't work out a relationship based on romanticism.
Or even perfect features, gazillion bank accounts, 10 packs muscles, family background, BLAH BLAH BLAHH..
Right? You can right? I mean, I can man!! Woots If I want to
If I want to Look at the world man.
Which part of it says cannot? Sigh.
Sometimes. I'm a lil worried, like what if one day I become too worldly.
Apart from God?
When I came to think of it, like now.
Geeeeeesh! Creepy! LOL Damn haggard man my life.
Damn haggard man my life.Moving on, right now. I'm so thankful that I know God. I really thank God (:
Its like the last thing anything could ever happen to me.
It became huge part in my life right now.
I wish to have a Christian God-centered person as my life partner, that he can guide me in whatever ways I do. You know, last time right. I'm so damn stubborn plus with my rebellious egoistic character.
I would never ever ever EVERR admit that a woman should summit to her husband.
Even though I din't say it out. In my heart Its like, 'NO WAY MAN! YERR. Why would I want to do that? Why?! Woman cannot ahhh? Man so big ah?!! ISHHH'
WTH right me. So sinful brat. HAHA.
You say, what if someone loves me whole heartedly but doesn't love God.
Does it make sense?
I mean, how could he? Isn't God is more gruesome and perfect than me.
So miraculously, when there's presence of God, everything will naturally flow accordingly.
Mutual Understanding. Commitment. Everything.
That's the beauty in Him :)
Of course I didn't mean that everything will be tip-top perfect okay.
Obviously there will be war. Hurricane. Nook and cranny every part my roller-coaster life.
So if he love God. And I love God too! Why couldn't I love Him right?
In Christ, I could see everything can be done in Him.
CHEESE!! Or is it CHEERS!!
Don't worry I haven't found my ONE yet.
In other word, that means YAY! You still have a chance!
LOL. You just waste 5 minute of your life reading this.
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